Where Grief Finds Me

A close-up of a Black woman’s torso glowing with deep red and molten orange light. Fiery tendrils swirl across her stomach, curling like smoke and flame moving under the skin. The navel glows like an opening to something powerful inside. The image captures the emotional heat that rises through the solar plexus and sacral — grief, memory, desire, and truth living in the center of the body.

Where Grief Finds me Written in real-time as grief moves through my body Grief finds me in the places I can’t ignore. It moves through my solar plexus as heat and sits in the old memories in my sacral. Some days it settles in my right hip like a weight I’ve carried alone for years. … Read more

Stand in my Center

A Black woman stands with eyes closed, bathed in warm beams of light, her face soft and serene. Pink tones swirl gently around her, echoing the energy of protection, grounding, and inner return. She appears centered, rooted, and guided, embodying the calm strength of a woman standing fully in her power.

Stand in my Center a living practice to ground my body, protect my energy and call all of me back into the present moment. This writing is a steadying point. It is a moment to breathe, return to myself and strengthen my field before I step into any space. It is a blend of grounding, … Read more

ShaaniCreates Patreon

A luminous golden sphere rests at the center of an intricate mandala, glowing like polished brass and surrounded by sculpted layers of teal, cerulean, deep turquoise and midnight blue that ripple outward with ornate gold detailing and jewel-like droplets in amber and lapis. The image carries the energy of grounded clarity, emotional depth and embodied truth that defines the ShaaniCreates Patreon. The radiant gold reflects inner strength and leadership, while the flowing blues mirror reflection, somatic awareness and the quiet honesty that shapes the space. The mandala feels alive with intention and speaks to the way the work on ShaaniCreates Patreon moves from the center outward, steady and true.

A New Beginning at ShaaniCreates I created my Patreon five years ago and, for a long time, I let it stay quiet. I wasn’t ready to share myself in the ways my body was asking me to. I didn’t have the clarity, the language or the capacity to open a space like this and hold … Read more

When the Eruption Comes

When the Eruption Comes from the truth that lives beneath my calm It starts as an explosion inside me, something sudden and undeniable. Rage rises before I can prepare myself. This rage feels ancient, like it has been waiting for the moment I finally stop holding it in place. It pushes up from the pressure … Read more

Ritual in Motion

A close-up of a Black woman typing on her laptop as currents of glowing purple, rose gold, and electric blue energy flow from her fingertips and rise from the keys. The soft light on her skin and the swirl of luminous motion around her hands capture the truth that creation moves through her body, turning an ordinary moment into living ritual.

Ritual in Motion I don’t always recognize the start of a ritual right away. It begins quietly, inside my body. My breath drops lower without warning, settling into a rhythm that feels deeper than the moment I’m in. My belly warms, soft at first, then heavier, almost like a hand pressing from the inside reminding … Read more

Nine in the Palm of My Hand

A close-up of a single coffee bean resting on a bed of other beans, glowing from within as if holding an ancestral fire. Light radiates softly through its crease, creating a warm, amber aura that feels alive and intentional. The bean appears activated, mirroring the energy of ritual, intuition, and remembrance that rises in Nine in the Palm of My Hand.

Nine in the Palm of My Hand I received the message from my Ancestors via Beverly on October 23 while I was listening in the Ancient Healing room on Clubhouse. Beverly played music over me, she began speaking, and the moment she mentioned the coffee beans forming an X, my spirit reacted before my mind … Read more

September Golden Harvest

A Black woman with high priestess energy sits rooted in the Earth, exhaling spirals of golden light that weave through the flowers around her. Her breath becomes a blessing, a prayer of prosperity and protection flowing into the land. The image captures the essence of harvest as both gathering and giving, honoring the cycles of September.

September Golden Harvest A Ritual Story of Birth and Becoming The wheel turns, and I feel the shift in the air. August exhales, her heat softening into memory, and September steps forward carrying the weight of ripened fields and the promise of gathering. This is the season when Earth herself leans into abundance, when seeds … Read more

Muse of My Own Making

A beautiful Black woman sits outdoors in the stillness of night, bathed in the glow of the Full Moon in Aquarius hanging high above a quiet home. She wears a soft, off-the-shoulder summer dress, her hair gathered in a graceful bun, and cradles a steaming cup of tea in both hands. Wisps of steam curl upward into the moonlight, blending with the cool night air. The scene feels serene and intimate, a moment suspended between breath and thought, embodying presence, reflection, and quiet strength.

Muse of My Own Making A Ritual Story of Presence, Pleasure and Becoming The Full Moon in Aquarius rises today at her peak, carrying the expansive clarity of air and the unwavering truth of fixed energy. I feel her illuminating the places within me where my individuality meets the collective vision, where my courage to … Read more

Riding the Emotional Waves

A vivid, surreal landscape with a Black woman standing at the center, her shoulder-length locs flowing, surrounded by cosmic energy and ancient symbols. The scene blends futuristic Afropunk aesthetics with surreal, abstract elements, capturing a moment where the past and future converge. The setting features vibrant colors, swirling energies, and mystical symbols, emphasizing a powerful connection to ancestral wisdom.

Riding the Emotional Waves Riding the Emotional Waves ✨ I embrace my emotional waves with a deep sense of awareness 🧘🏾‍♀️ and gratitude of what my body is feeling in the moment. I begin with radical acceptance 🌊, understanding that these waves are part of my mystical journey. I find peace 🕊️ in this acceptance, … Read more

New Moon in Aries, Solar Eclipse and Emotional Grace

A symbolic image of a New Moon solar eclipse over a quiet landscape, emphasizing the dark silhouette of the moon covering the sun with a faint solar corona visible. The scene should be tranquil, with subtle illumination from the solar corona casting a mystical glow on sparse clouds and a reflective water body below. This landscape should evoke a sense of calm and new beginnings, ideal for setting the tone of a spiritual New Moon ritual, focusing on transformation and introspection.

New Moon in Aries, Solar Eclipse and Emotional Grace I actively let go of deep-seated ancestral and personal emotions, including anger, rage, grief, and sorrow, that have burdened my spirit and clouded my experiences. These emotions, while once protective or reactionary, no longer serve my journey towards inner peace and empowerment. In consciously releasing these … Read more